Saturday, December 8, 2012

The Beginning of Healing

Thursday and Friday I went in for my chemo treatments. They were 7-8 hours each. Since partway through Thursday I have been battling nausea and poppin' pills like crazy. Nothing sounds good to eat. Today I have eaten plain white rice with salt and half of an otter pop. I want to eat more because I know I should, it's just hard when you feel like you're barely able to keep down what's already in you. I just keep feeling my left leg (no pain there today!) and imagining the chemo already going in and killing the tumor.

It's weird how something so painful is actually killing the bad in my body and healing me. I guess that's how life is though, isn't it? It's not usually the awesome, fun experiences that mold us into better, stronger people. It's the hard stuff. Persevering through pain and trials we would have thought to destroy us actually help us become the strong, healthy, Christlike people we are meant to become.

I just know that these dark times are going to help me see the light, the good, and the happy forever. It's worth it. Even this horrible, earth-shattering trial is a part of God's plan for me to reach a currently unfathomable happiness in the future.
PS My head feels really cloudy right now. Please excuse grammatical errors/generally not making sense.

10 comments:

  1. Crystal. You are a rock! What a great example you are to face trials with faith and hope! You are in my prayers!

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  2. Thank you for sharing that, Crystal. You will be an amazing "currant bush," or whatever the Lord wants you to be.

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  3. Love your insight Crystal! Praying for you!

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  4. I love you and look up to you in many ways. I love to read your blogs because you have such a positive outlook on your trials. I hope to see you in 14 hours!

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  5. Sounds like a great start. You are awesome. Keep on killing that tumor! We're praying for you. ♡♡♡
    ~Sheri

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  6. I love the video! I forgot about that talk--very inspiring! Hang in there Crystal! xoxo

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  7. Keep letting your beautiful light shine, Crystal. Your words will also help you, and who knows how many other may read them and be stronger because of you. Was Michael able to be with you during any of the chemo time(s)? Sometimes I sit with Saul when he goes, sometimes I run short errands near the hospital and then make sure to bring him back a little something to eat (when he feels like he can eat). It's comforting to have those who love you near you, even if you are just there, so take a family member or a friend, play a game or two, talk, write on your blog or even sleep. Just know that you are surrounded by LOVE, PRAYERS, AND GOD'S ARMS! Loving you from afar, dear granddaughter (in-law).

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  8. There really aren't words to express what an inspiration you are and what a beautiful person you are inside and out. We are keeping you in our prayers. Much love sent your way.

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  9. Still cheering for you here! We love you. Thanks for sharing the message from Elder C, too. Perfect.

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